flaws undone

8:23pm: Still here!
LIVE JOURNAL is still here..

weird..

how long has it been since i've even been on this page

10:05pm: I'm updating!
 wooo..

Life has been inside and out...
 I love my job..

SOO much fun.. I will have to post some pics of me being BatGirl tomorrow..
 
I miss my friends.. and my life but i'm having such a good time being me..

1:27pm: Left out
So I haven't updated once again in some time..

But I will right now..

So Since my last journal..
I got divorced haha..
On facebook that is..
The relationship just didn't work out and I wanted different things..
It was my shortest boyfriend experience yet..

oh well..

I did some stuff I wasn't proud of.. but God forgives.. not a reason to do it but I know God forgave me the moment I asked.

Wonder if I'll ever find my path in life..
I'm sure I will soon enough but it just feels like I wont..

ya know??

Hmm...
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Well I guess thats it..
I have two jobs now. I feel important haha
sorta..

Miss Camp but God has a plan
I'm going to IWU..
Exciting.. so come Jan ill be living in Indiana

I love FALL

9:42pm: 11 weeks and now the tears
so wow.. I actually im writing in my livejournal..

man.. weird to think that I use once obsessed with this thing..

so 11 weeks of my life just came and went.. I cannot believe camp is over already. I had the MOST AMAZING experience of my life. I taught kids about God. God used me to share his news.. I have learned so much from the campers I had. Working with Special needs was the most amazing choice I made.

I have learned more this summer then in my entire life.

I just want to praise God for this summer and tell everyone about him.

It was the hardest thing to do when I left camp. I cannot believe how difficult it was to leave the best friends I will ever know. Dana.. Magen... Ella..Mary... Carrie... KP... I could go on forever...

Thank you God for this extremely wonderful summer.
I met my Husband... we already got married..
life is so amazing

9:14pm: Goodnight moon
12 days and counting until I leave for camp

once I leave.. im done at home..forever

I move from camp into my new house with Kelly and Keri

Such love I have for those girls

yay for jess..:) I LOVE YOU


boo im tired

i took to many of my sleepy pills :( goodnight for me.

Goodnight Moon

7:47pm: It's crazy how the months fly by when I dont use my lj..

I dont like being home

I can't wait for camp...
less then 20 days till I leave! woo

then when I return from my adventures at Spring Hill Camps I will be living with two of my best friends! woot.

other then that..

I hate you all..

kidding..

I "miss" you all..

8:21pm: Pretty cool huh...
It's funny how things can change so fast..

Friends become foe.. Enemys renew your hope in people..

I hope every single soul will be saved.. I pray everyone will know who my Jesus is.
Friends are people that will talk to you when you are brusied.. when you've given up on yourself, they will pick your head up and hold you.
I have true friends. I also love those kids who will take a shot with you because they know you hate being sick by yourself.. haha.. those are true friends as well..

I love you all..

I can't say my Goodbyes enough...

I quit Bavarian Inn.. I just haven't told them this yet lol.. but I will

I work at the Coffee House tomorrow.. boo.. But I have a job.. so yay.
Also going out tomorrow night.. this is a big plus

11:33pm: New me!

My loves

11:31pm: The girls..

Aren't these two so cute!

It was the Stoplight party... haha Ill stop with that

11:29pm: The Working Crew

3:48pm: testing
Ok.. this is not a test..

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I JUSY WANT TO SCEARM! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...........


ahh

ok.. seriously

I think last night was one of the best nights I have ever had. It was perfection... well some parts were.. others were very funny.. with my bfffff Christine..haha.. sigh

I just hate the spot i put him in and I didnt even do it.. so I dont know!! BLAH

11:37am: Lyrics for "Your Call"
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

(Chorus)

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home x4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

(Chorus)

12:53pm: Well boys and girls..
I'm really sick of living at home.. But Im glad not to be in the dorms in some way. I just can't wait until aug when Kelly and Keri and I get our place.. it's gonna be so sweet.. we have a whole room for pong! haha.. who needs a washer and dryer when you have a pong room!

Im excited for Spring Hill.. Im hoping to meet the man of my dreams there lol.. well one of them at least.

i'm pretty much sure I HATE my job at Baravian inn.. I made over 200 a week and I still hate it. I want to leave there but I can't leave the money when i'm going to be moving out.. I plan on staying until April but by then I should just stay until I leave in May. just over two months from now!! :)

It's cool because when I leave in May ill come back Aug 18th then that week I move into my apartment! haha! yay!

Well.. I miss everyone..

Darc`

9:40pm: SPRING HILL SUMMER CAMP
HERE I COME!!

I'm working full summer with 1st-3rd graders! I'm seriously so happy. WE get TO LIVE IN A STORY BOOK! The Cabins are made to look like little girl things.. :) i can't wait for summer to come.

Things are exciting.. I dont think im going to stay at Baravian Inn.. I hate it.

I miss my friends.

3:45pm: And all you want is his money....
Oh, you should not be angry
'Cause all you want is her body

What has love become?

2:39pm: yuck
I have strep throat.. yuck...

I have parents.. that are controlling... yuck..


I have the chills.. yuck

I have a fever.. yuck

I had an interview.. yuck
but it went well.. wooo


ok then..

im out

10:19am: sigh..

crazy life

1:38pm: Big dreams
gahh..

had a really good thursday night :) I saw kelsey and we talked and everything is good :) Which makes me really happy..

didn't see the person i wanted to but saw someone else... sigh.. He knows exactly what to say and how to say it and he kissed everyone last night but I just remember he kiss so perfect.. haha

well anyways...

jess will probably be the only one to know what the hell i mean by... sigh....

we had a good convo when we got home last night at like 5am...

sigh..

IM SOOOOOOO EXCITED FOR TOMORROW NIGHT!! WOOO!

I still need a job..

1:35pm: Blue eyes and no brains.
So I am excited to start classes on monday haha...
Does that make me a huge dork?

I had a rough night last night but i'm better today.. it was probably all my own fault but I think it was best to sit home and pout.. I feel better.

I have to babysit today.. I like doing this actually.. I feel like a mom but then i get to give the kids away and not have to deal with anything i dont want to.

Hung out with Colin, Candice and Chris. We watched Wedding Crashers and Bondack? Saints. I didn't like the second one.. but it was ok. I really miss those three. I can't believe how long it's been since i've seen Candice haha..

I'm actually kinda glad not to be living in the dorms.. I said kinda..

It's not like I dont have a million friends there that I can stay with or even friends off campus i can stay with.. yay..

I did get to go see Rochester College during break with my BESTEST friend of LIFE... KK.. we both know we have our own best friends but there's something special about her and I.. She has a ton of amazing friends at Rochester and I have so many here in vassar and sag but when we are together, it's us.


alright, no more time to update this here LJ...

ps.. I guess i'm a fake person

2:35pm: anyways that was fun..

I need a job.. booo..

Highlights of 05
college...
5 mistakes
beer pong
graduation
summer concerts
to many boys
found the best roommates
Police station
Homecoming court
Making the best friends
learning who I am
Finding my Faith again
Music taste has grown
Parties
Halloween was amazing
growing up

sigh.. i love being 18.

1:44pm: I need you to save me too
I really dont have time for lj's anymore.. they have just turned into survey crap..

booo

i had surgery! I'm ok.. minus a gallbladder..
I lost about 7 lbs from it :) woo

I haven't eaten a full meal since sunday, i'm kinda hungry.

moving home is fun in a way.

I'm lightheaded.. boo to that.

2:28pm:
I am also
trait snapshot:

messy, irritable, depressed, fragile, worrying, emotionally sensitive, does not like to lead, phobic, weird, suspicious, low self control, paranoid, frequently second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, weak, strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with the dark side of life, feels invisible, rash, vain, anti-authority, heart over mind, low self concept, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer, unadventurous



this is depressing..

4:31pm: So my journey at svsu is almost over..
it was a good ride but im glad i'm almost done.

Next journey...
i dont know yea lol

really really tired

at work again
i only update while im at work haha

im hungry

I babysat last night.. super fun

I have lost it and I dont even care! hahahah!

8:20pm: Blood red and still happy
At school again..

The weekend was amazing. I got to see most of my old friends.. and we just hung out and played games haha.. the boring usual stuff. But i was excited.

Nothing else is really new.
I have to move home at semester which sucks.. but it also could be the thing I need. I haven't been on the right path and maybe living under my parents again may help.

Im gettin really sick everytime i eat now.. it's getting worse and worse. I want to follow my dr's advice and stop eating food.. well fatty food but now even cheese hurts my body. On the 19th i have my surgery...

scaryyy....

sigh anyways,

I seem to always fall for the boys who are NO good or who have girlfriends. of course I do not know they have girlfriends... until after they hook me hahaha.. pheew
boys suck

at work.. and im watching the lizzy mcquire movie :)

it's soo slow but I sorta like it this way lol

love ya
Darc!

6:46pm: At work.. being bored

Im so weirded out..

This is the strongest i've felt about someone that shouldn't matter at all.. sigh.. i just don't know.....



blah..
yup

so happy...